What a year it's been! I've lost my job, my boyfriend, my self. It hasn't been the best year on record, but it hasn't been the worst either. To me, next year holds the promise of a brighter future.
This year has shaped me considerably. I've rediscovered things I had forgotten. God is on the top of that list. I used some of the time of get to know myself again. Not to mention loosing 15 pounds over the year!
Next year, the goals are coming! I've got 11 goals for the year, to better 3 main areas: Finances, Sexiness, & Learning. I've been working in those areas for the past few months and made some progress, but much more progress, about 6-8 months, is required to get to a level where I am satisfied.
Update on the sleeping schedule: Since I stopped drinking caffeine after 7p, I'm in bed by midnight and up by 8. It's nice to have the mornings back, even if I do just piddle around...
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Sleeping with the ex-
Last night, I was hanging out with my ex-girlfriend. We had some drinks and before I knew it, I was doing something I thought I was sure to regret. Once I realized what a bad idea it was, I jumped off of her, flinged the condom off, zipped up my pants, and barfed in the bathroom.
Afterward, I am actually ok with what happened. I don't harbor any ill feelings about her or what happened last night. We are both quite sexual and she is willing to do some things that I've been wanting to try, involving a woman and another man.
Now, I try not to label myself, but if you must classify me: I'm a 5 on the Kinsey Scale. That basically means I love men, but I'll sleep with a woman. I've found that most people aren't gay or straight, but somewhere in the middle. If you have a problem with that, you need to have a conversation with your sexual unconscious.
Afterward, I am actually ok with what happened. I don't harbor any ill feelings about her or what happened last night. We are both quite sexual and she is willing to do some things that I've been wanting to try, involving a woman and another man.
Now, I try not to label myself, but if you must classify me: I'm a 5 on the Kinsey Scale. That basically means I love men, but I'll sleep with a woman. I've found that most people aren't gay or straight, but somewhere in the middle. If you have a problem with that, you need to have a conversation with your sexual unconscious.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Compromising with Yourself
I've let myself slip on what I am supposed to be doing. Getting back on track is somewhat difficult. I'd rather be doing 20 other things than what I have to do. I am trying my best to get back on track and it's working. I've even decided to compromise with myself on some key issues.
Firstly, from the time I wake up until 7p, I can have as much caffeine as I want. After 7p, I can't have any! This will not only help me sleep at night, but help me get up in the mornings! While this time is not set in stone, repercussions will be lack of quality sleep.
Secondly, I love White Cheddar Popcorn. I usually buy 2-3 of the $2.99 bags a week. I'll sit and eat the whole bag at one sitting if I don't get it often. My compromise is to buy/eat a $0.99 bags a day, 3 days a week. That will cut the amount of salt, and possibly calories, in my diet. I hate being bloated the day after scarfing down a big bag of this stuff!
Thirdly, I will smoke outside when it's day and in the kitchen w/ the exhaust fan on when it's night. Keeping the air semi-clean in the house is important, especially in the polluted place I live. Not only for me, but for my cat, who hates cigarette smoke! As a bonus: I'll sleep better at night not breathing in the smoke.
Lastly, I can only have some store bought candy if I walk to the store. On top of that, I can only buy 1 regular-sized piece per walking visit. If I slip on this one, I'll have to walk an extra 30 minutes as part of my exercise. The store is only 5 minutes away by foot, so I'd make out better walking to the store.
Firstly, from the time I wake up until 7p, I can have as much caffeine as I want. After 7p, I can't have any! This will not only help me sleep at night, but help me get up in the mornings! While this time is not set in stone, repercussions will be lack of quality sleep.
Secondly, I love White Cheddar Popcorn. I usually buy 2-3 of the $2.99 bags a week. I'll sit and eat the whole bag at one sitting if I don't get it often. My compromise is to buy/eat a $0.99 bags a day, 3 days a week. That will cut the amount of salt, and possibly calories, in my diet. I hate being bloated the day after scarfing down a big bag of this stuff!
Thirdly, I will smoke outside when it's day and in the kitchen w/ the exhaust fan on when it's night. Keeping the air semi-clean in the house is important, especially in the polluted place I live. Not only for me, but for my cat, who hates cigarette smoke! As a bonus: I'll sleep better at night not breathing in the smoke.
Lastly, I can only have some store bought candy if I walk to the store. On top of that, I can only buy 1 regular-sized piece per walking visit. If I slip on this one, I'll have to walk an extra 30 minutes as part of my exercise. The store is only 5 minutes away by foot, so I'd make out better walking to the store.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas Everyone! OK, I'm a little late, and I have no defense what-so-ever. My Christmas was great! I got zip from Dad, except an unpaid delivery job of a present for someone else. Not that I really deserve a present from him, but he could have at least given me a card.
I got the standard gifts from Mom: socks, underwear, etc. It wasn't much, but I took home plenty of leftovers and gained 3 pounds over the last few days. Some of that is water weight b/c of some salty, but good, food.
All in all, this year's gifts to me sucked. I am glad I was able to give the youngest member of the extended family some cash, made his day. He thanked me at least 4 times, his smile making me smile every time.
I got the standard gifts from Mom: socks, underwear, etc. It wasn't much, but I took home plenty of leftovers and gained 3 pounds over the last few days. Some of that is water weight b/c of some salty, but good, food.
All in all, this year's gifts to me sucked. I am glad I was able to give the youngest member of the extended family some cash, made his day. He thanked me at least 4 times, his smile making me smile every time.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Early Christmas Present
Merry Christmas!
I got an early present from Santa this year, a night's sleep. I slept from 11p to 5:30a. It was wonderful to sleep at night. I can't wait to see what else Santa got me. Yes, I am 29 and my Mom still insists on writing 'From: Santa' on presents. I'll be heading over there this evening.
I got all my shopping done yesterday at K-Mart. Only 1 person is younger than me, my nephew, so he gets the most. Everyone else is limited to $6 presents. I kinda feel like Scrooge. It's hard when I want to get everyone good gifts, but I'm on unemployment. At least I'm able to give my nephew some cash.
Luckily, I don't have to worry about food for the next week. I did my grocery shopping too and my fridge is almost slap full and will be when I get back from Mom's house. She and my aunt always cook too much, but we always get plastic food containers as presents.
Well, I've been a major slacker the last 2 days on my list. I've done the "must do" items but everything else has been pushed back. I reset most everything that was overdue so that it's not overdue anymore. Guilt is setting in on that, but I'm not gonna let it get to me, because it's Christmas and I need to learn to forgive my own short comings. Jesus would want it that way.
I got an early present from Santa this year, a night's sleep. I slept from 11p to 5:30a. It was wonderful to sleep at night. I can't wait to see what else Santa got me. Yes, I am 29 and my Mom still insists on writing 'From: Santa' on presents. I'll be heading over there this evening.
I got all my shopping done yesterday at K-Mart. Only 1 person is younger than me, my nephew, so he gets the most. Everyone else is limited to $6 presents. I kinda feel like Scrooge. It's hard when I want to get everyone good gifts, but I'm on unemployment. At least I'm able to give my nephew some cash.
Luckily, I don't have to worry about food for the next week. I did my grocery shopping too and my fridge is almost slap full and will be when I get back from Mom's house. She and my aunt always cook too much, but we always get plastic food containers as presents.
Well, I've been a major slacker the last 2 days on my list. I've done the "must do" items but everything else has been pushed back. I reset most everything that was overdue so that it's not overdue anymore. Guilt is setting in on that, but I'm not gonna let it get to me, because it's Christmas and I need to learn to forgive my own short comings. Jesus would want it that way.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Doing Homework
After researching the uberman sleep schedule more, I have come to the conclusion that quitting smoking will make the sleep schedule more difficult. On top of that, I love my caffeine, but I can still have a bit of caffeine on the schedule.
Fully researching something will either motivate you or kill the idea. You should always know what you're getting into. Whether it's buying a computer or investing your money, understanding the majority of the layman information can greatly improve your decisions.
Making blind decisions can turn from good to bad in a heart beat. Even with religion, I don't believe blindly. I know, from experience, that God, and the devil, and angels for that matter, do exist. For instance, when I was quitting smoking, it helped greatly to ask and receive a hug from Jesus. The calming sensation is definitely out of this world.
Fully researching something will either motivate you or kill the idea. You should always know what you're getting into. Whether it's buying a computer or investing your money, understanding the majority of the layman information can greatly improve your decisions.
Making blind decisions can turn from good to bad in a heart beat. Even with religion, I don't believe blindly. I know, from experience, that God, and the devil, and angels for that matter, do exist. For instance, when I was quitting smoking, it helped greatly to ask and receive a hug from Jesus. The calming sensation is definitely out of this world.
Alcohol, Sleep, & Christmas
Ahh. An evening of drinks after I woke up at 5p. It was Diet Pepsi and Captain Morgan's. Now that I have slacked during the first 9 hours of my day it's time to get moving. I must correct my sleep schedule in order to get back to being on top of things.
I'd like to switch to the uberman schedule, but that won't happen this week, as I am supposed to be at my Mom's for Christmas and I can't be sleep deprived. I'm gonna try to pull it back so that I am awake by 2p on Thursday.
I'm such a procrastinator. Here is it 3 days until Christmas and I have yet to do a single bit of shopping. I always wait until the last minute, and every year I say I will have 90% done my 12/1 next year. At least I have most everyone's present figured out. Maybe I'll run up to Walmart early Wednesday morning?
I'd like to switch to the uberman schedule, but that won't happen this week, as I am supposed to be at my Mom's for Christmas and I can't be sleep deprived. I'm gonna try to pull it back so that I am awake by 2p on Thursday.
I'm such a procrastinator. Here is it 3 days until Christmas and I have yet to do a single bit of shopping. I always wait until the last minute, and every year I say I will have 90% done my 12/1 next year. At least I have most everyone's present figured out. Maybe I'll run up to Walmart early Wednesday morning?
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