I have been feeling down in the dumps lately. There are tons of reasons. I am leaving portions of the truth covered from my family. I only have 2 friends outside of family. One friend is too busy to hang with me. The other friend seems to be pushing away for some reason. My relationships with my blood relatives are all crap.
I feel all alone in this big and scary world. At least I've got my cat, and God, to keep me company. They both love me so much. It just doesn't seem like enough. I deserve better, but feel like there's nothing I can do to make it better. I'm a smart guy. I know there are plenty of ways I can improve my social situation.
The first step is getting out of the house, but where would I go? I could go to the gay bar or the karaoke bar. I just feel exposed and lonely going out by myself. I could go to church, but most Christians don't see the bigger picture. Most ppl at a bar don't see it either.
Am I doomed to be lonely for the remainder of my life? Am I missing the guy who broke my heart a few months ago? Am I upset at the 9 shirts hanging in my living room b/c the dryer's broken? Am I just missing some part of my brain that everyone else possesses?
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